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It was a good day.

It was decided as junie entered her quarters. Good progress had been made on the repairs to the Orion, nothing broke catastrophically, no casualties in the process and sh didn't have to kill anyone. Normally long frustrating days full of at least a hundred different working variables that all needed to be in balance or something would likely shatter at the most improper time was a exhausting experience of arguments over this thing and that, as such was the misery of corraling intelligent people who all think they are right and all think different things all at the same time.

Junie was not much of a manager, she was beginning to realize, not diplomatic enough for the majority of the talking bit. But her efficacy in nearly anything ships helped keep her crew confident in what she thought, that alone has been keeping engineering working without issue.

She mused about the idea of a strange alien commanding men many times her age around a ship she wasn't familiar with less than a year before as she checked her rooms air filter readout twice before taking off her mask and taking a deep breath of "fresh" air. it was certainly cooler and crisper than the filtered air of her face mask. humming gently to herself as she prepares to settle down for the evening. Her cream and green cloak bing hung up on a wall and most of her tech and bundling being folded and placed at the door. followed by her over packed satchel that was quickly wearing out after such long use. She already patched it with ventilation tape. But being overweight for just so long was starting to burn out the old bag. She hrmmed over the puzzle for a moment but decided it could wait until morning when her brain wasn't so fried.

Her room was just a bit too cramped to be cozy, packed with stuff of all sorts with just enough room for someone her size to navigate it without issue. the heat of the room was just high enough to be uncomfortable for most, as she found most of the world a bit too cold to be comfortable. Taking off her boots and gloves she stretched out to get ready for the mild workout she did during the week. Only to realize, she forgot cardio and groaned gently. She really didn't want to, especially after gearing down.

Eventually raw discipline won out. but only just. Double checking her boots for unnecessary wear and putting most everything back on, deciding to skip the extra layers other than her robe and just be cold for the ten seconds she wouldn't be running. she walked out of her room, locked it once more and shivered gently as she stretched out and began a slow jog as she slowly ramped up to a run. Wondering where she was going to run to today...well, actually they were crash landed on a beach, and she always heard beaches at night were nice. Might as well go see if it was true, and it was at least a half mile if she decided to take a long way through the ship and use the stairs instead of the lifts.

Destination set, off she went without a word, pondering about this and that as she settled into a running pace.
 

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There was a full moon out that night.

Given that Xadao had retired for the night after a full day's worth of training and study, Raine wasn't about to drag him out of his bed to join her on the beach, even if it was a perfectly fine evening with gentle breeze and temperature that was neither too cold or too hot. Their constant movement - from system to system - from planet to planet - made it exceedingly difficult to enjoy nights such as these. Most of them were spent on board the Orion and those that were not, were usually spent in some urban metropolis with bustling citizenry mulling about at all hours of the day. Not a moment of privacy left, really. And no place to enjoy it, even if there were some to have.

But tonight was different. Tonight actually presented itself with the opportunity to cherish some peace and quiet under distant twinkling stars. So Raine sat alone, on the beach that was now sunken in comforting darkness, save for the bright light of the full moon, above. The gently lapping waves of nearby sea splashed teasingly against her bare feet. She enjoyed the tranquility of the evening for as long as it would last, although she would not mind company. For now though, she had to be satisfied with the buzzing of the flies that randomly flew by, and the slowly creeping crustacean, looking to be heading for a late night swim.
 

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Peace and quiet on the beach wasn't long to last.

If only because a heavy breathing jawa would soon collapse onto the beach breathing as if she could hardly catch her breath. Damnable stairs, she keeps forgetting how hard it was to run up them, especially at her size, it often turns into a high impact jumping sport. Her legs were numb after the run, and the filters on her mask hardly let in enough cool air to support her current breathing. damn air filters required time.

but, she had to admit once her vision went straight again. It was a gorgeous night. she only really spent a few nights in Tatooine. but in terms of stargazing, being in a backwater made it one of the best places to do so. you could see the entire galaxy at night, and though this place still had enough light pollution to ruin that particular vista, there was still plenty to see. Including one of the biggest full moons she ever saw.

After a moment of lying on her back in the sand she felt a familiar presence in the force. She looked over to her left and saw a familiar blonde doing the same as her. Her feet in the ice cold water just watching the night pass by. How she could do that Junie couldn't imagine, but the desire for company took her to Raine after a minute or two.

She stopped maybe a couple feet from Raine, looking back up at the sky. "You know, the first time I ever heard of a beach I was sixteen years old." she said, looking out across the inky blackness, the void of light signaling the lake. "First time I ever actually seen one was during Serenas funeral service on Naboo, getting there was a trick and a half, and sadly i don't remember the words that were said. Just the lake, and the beach. The first time i ever been on one was a couple days ago. this is the first time at night."

she took a seat next to Raine, looking up at the stars and pulling her bod into a tight little ball. It turns out, the water and sand sucked all the heat out of nearly everything. Coming here without her bundling was turning into a bad idea. But the coming...that was turning out to be nice. "I never imagined the water to be so ominous, and the stars so inviting...For some reason, I expected water to act like sand dunes."
 

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Raine looked up, her glance focused upon the star-peppered sky, rather than the companion who just happened to intrude upon her personal space. Raine did not mind. Her personal space was free to be shared by anyone really - as long as they did not wish her ill. The moon drew her gaze quickly enough, its big round face lighting up the firmament as if it was the only light in the sky, that mattered. So lonely, Raine thought. Or so alone - like me - unique in its position in the sky and its function within the circumstances it had been thrust into...

"I saw holographic images of a beach but did not actually visit one, until now," Raine murmured, leaning back to increase the angle of her visual scope. "Serena's funeral? Sounds like the girl whose stuff I inherited - don't tell me it's the same person," patting the sand right next to her, Raine smiled as Junie took a seat right next to her, and without argument, too.

"Tell me about her?" The Jedi Knight suddenly ventured, not knowing why she was interested. She just knew it was the right thing to say. Honestly? You could just open your mind and let me speak... No, Raine shifted uneasily upon the sand hoping that the Jawa would not have noticed. I want to hear them... speak. Just ....let it be.

The voice inside of her was gradually silenced. Shifting her chin toward her diminutive companion, the Force clone chuckled, the tone of her voice forceful in its bland reassurance. "And don't worry about the ominous water - I will protect you from its vile clutches if the need should arise."
 

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It was now Junie's turn to shift uncomfortably. normally, she hated being treated as if she was a child, or something else that couldn't care for herself. But somehow when Raine joked about protecting her from water, which would normally be eye roll worthy and then just as quickly dismissed as a minor irritation. But this time Raine's sardonic statement made her feel warm and safe, before a cold rush of disdain that it was just a joke ripped the feeling away. only to be followed up by a intense shiver as a cold wind blasted off the lake. Causing a deep shiver.

"Hmm, I don't know if i know more about her than you do at this point...I have the distinct feeling that no one does." She just stared at Raine a long moment, wondering if her face would give any hint that her suspicion was correct. "Anyway. I suppose I can tell you what i thought of her though." She stopped and considered. before answering. It was a long time since she ever thought about Serena in any real sense.

"I think she was a sad person. in retrospect. Like she never wanted to be where she was doing what she was. Even though she was good at it. As if she hated the fates for choosing her to be extraordinary instead of allowing her to live as ordinary. I think she would have been much happier being a mother on some planet somewhere." she looked to Raine and considered for a moment, wondering if she had more to add but shrugged and continued. "Don't get me wrong, she wasn't mopey. She was like you in that respect. She liked to play, was a little-bit crude at times, but had a sardonic wit about her I always enjoyed. The one thing i always appreciated is that I was a child when she was around. she is one of the two people that actually...played with me as if i was a child."

"But i think she also used her humor to hide how fragile she was. To appear as the pillar that she thought everyone needed. When she started to drink heavily I think is when the toll of that started to break her."
She considered as she drew herself into a tight little ball, lost in the past for a moment as she tried to make sense of her old memories she hadn't bothered trying to make sense of before now. They weren't painful, or even mournful. Serena didn't mean to Junie what she meant to the others. she wondered if that made her cold. Knowing that a life that touched so many just sort of skipped past hers like a stone on a lake. "I'm not entirely sure what else to say. Unless you have a specific question?"
 

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Raine enjoyed teasing others, without exception. Not even Davin Kabak was immune to her taunts nor would he ever be. Raine may have been approaching adulthood, but inside she was very much still a child and it wasn't something she saw as a detriment, either - in fact, she was proud of it. All the people she was surrounded by, whether on the Orion or any planet they had visited in the Unknowns, seemed to take themselves very seriously. So it would not have surprised Raine that Junie was irritated with her quips and teases. Still, she shrugged it off inwardly, not wanting to mar the evening by starting a discussion that would lead them both into a possible argument. Instead, she listened to all that the Jawa had to say on the subject of Serena Elysar, dipping her head in a nod every now and then, as she deemed appropriate.

"Sounds like she had a lot of problems, or in other words - was about as normal as they come. Given that a lot of you in the group had to deal with a lot of post traumatic stress on the account of having survived a Jedi Purge, it stands to reason that Serena never dealt with these associated events in a proper and consistent manner? It may explain why things just kept spiraling downwards for her, even if for some of you they were beginning to actually look up."

Falling back on the mention of drinking heavily, the Jedi thought back on her own battle with narcotics and how difficult it had been to contain from getting out of control. This was something she could sympathize with Serena on, had she been here to sympathize with. Raine knew that in spite of her perfectly sculpted physique, keen mind and exceptional talent with the Force, she was still a flawed human being. But she never tried to hide that part of her; in fact, she thought it important for others to see that she was not some untouchable being that walked on water - far from it.

Some, like Xadao Tobu, had a hard time seeing her flaws - always attempting to turn his master's every disadvantage into a plausible advantage - but Raine knew better.

"Uh, a specific question? No, not really. I was just curious because she seems to have generated some kind of 'mystique' when it comes to certain people here - such as Matthias, Marius or even Davin. It makes me think that she lived her life in the open, carried her heart on her sleeve, and was always prepared to lay down her life for those she loved. I doubt she'd have made it in the Jedi Order, given her particular lifestyle... but then again, she had a clear death wish and that to me screams a person who had lost everything and had very little if anything left to live for. And if she finally did perish thinking that - then her friends had failed her in the worst possible way. A relationship is never one sided. And from what I've heard from Lana and Marius, she saved their lives more than once without hesitation. There is no greater love than that, you know."

Shrugging, Raine dug her toes deep into the sand and laid back fully, looking up at the stars.
 

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To the first part Junie shrugged. "I could not say. But normal is not what any of us are, even Davin Kabak. We are all the misfits. its the only reason we survived. We weren't what anyone was expecting and that surprise we used to our advantage. In short, its only through something akin to grace that we survived as long as we have, with as few people lost as we have. This war has exposed that more than normal. We are supposed to be conquering heroes. the kind of myth and legend. Truth is, none of us are that. We are the ones that don't have a place, but with each other."

"As for the trauma and stress of losing everyone we have ever known and loved? Well, philosophically i suppose its true that that kind of thing should be recoverable. there is a technical aspect that sentients have, the more you beat on them without them dieing, the more strong they become. But i am not sure if there are other surviving Jedi out there, they are not just as broken as Serena was, or we are. I don't know the pathway of recovery for betrayal of that nature. Each one of us was part of the culture found unfit to survive, and was obliterated because of it. We are the final, strangled cry of that culture. Even if the Jedi are rebuilt, it will never be that which was."


As to the second she stopped and pondered, not letting her instant reaction be her first response as she watched Raine lay in the sand, and joined her, though scooted up against her side, just to leech heat off the woman. the sand would rob her heat quickly. Even if Raine would hardly find the jawa cold. it seems jawa default temperature is quite a bit warmer than humans.

"I suppose there is truth to that. we hold responsibility for every friend that dies, but i don't know if we are at fault. How do you expect people to help you if you are unwilling to tell them you need it? That said, i suppose its possible that she just didn't know she needed it. As I said, I cannot say, I wasn't close to her like Marius, Rade, Davin, Alonzo...And now i suppose Matthias. Man, Matthias gets around." She nudges Raine gently. "But, as I said, I suspect you know allot more about Serena then i do at this point. If not from talking to those who knew her, then by her things, and if not by both of those, than the fact you know you two are undeniably linked. Unless you decided everything you two hold similar just happens to be a coincidence. So I find myself wondering, are we talking about her, or about you? If about you Id certainly prefer that. Because you are here, and you are more a friend to me than she ever was."

Taking the lesson of what she said about Serena she just asked plain. "Raine, do you need help?"
 

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Thinking a moment about what Junie said, Raine nodded slowly. "Maybe you're right. Maybe we are all weird. I prefer weird over normal any day, come to think of it? But I refuse to see ourselves as some leftovers of the great order that once was. I would prefer to see ourselves as the best and strongest part of it, perhaps because by fate or by our own wits, we were spared death. We owned the situation, fought the bad guys and escaped intact to fight another day. We were never meant to be invincible - we were meant to persevere against the crappiest of odds and that is exactly what we have done."

She smirked, feeling the Jawa next to her, not minding in the slightest. It was a curious feeling - to have Junie so near - but not an unwelcome one. "I think if I were her friend, I'd try to climb over the walls she built around her.... but then again, I never know. Maybe she wouldn't let me. Maybe I'd be left out in the cold exactly where you were when she died." Shrugging into the sand, the Jedi frowned and sighed. "And you are wrong - I know about as much about her as I know about Kowakian Monkey Lizards. Well, maybe a little more? Suffice it to say, I feel like the side of Serena that she might have lost as the result of the Purge. Perhaps I could be Serena as she might have been or should have been? But that's a bit too weird, even for me. We are not related - not even close."

Turning her face to glance at her friend, Raine smirked. "Do I come across like someone who needs help? If so, perhaps I should ask you the same question. We all need some form of help even if we stubbornly ignore it, or simply choose not to admit it..."
 

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Junie decided to simply sit and look up at the stars silently as Raine spoke. deciding to not mention that technically, she didn't think that Raine was actually a Jedi. She wasn't entirely sure Davin had the power to make anyone a Jedi anything, but even then that would only be the semantic systems argument, Raine was born after the purge, and raised away from it. she was as much a survivor of the purge as someone born force sensitive today is.

but that was pedantic knit-pickery and beside the general thrust of her argument. there was no point in making it vocal other than to attempt to make Raine feel like a outsider that didn't know what she was talking about. So instead, Junie just snuggled in closer to her friend and listened. Letting the indignity she felt of someone who was talking about the purge who wasn't actually a part of it just fade into the sand.

"I cant imagine what its like to feel that way." She says after Raine said maybe she was just a more complete version of Serena. "As irritating at times as it is to be a unique thing all of their own, I never once thought life wasn't my own. What you just described saddens me. I hope you are right, because embracing a lie just to secure yourself is not a good idea, its like standing on thin ice, eventually it will swallow you."

She sighed as Raine asked her question. then simply nodded before saying. "Yes, you do. Especially now that you didn't actually answer the question. Just deflected it to me. But unfortunately for you, I do need help, and your not taking the hint,I'm cold!" she nudges Raine with a giggle and sighs. "Other than that I have just been feeling like too little butter over too much bread. I never was too good at saying no to people. I can count on one hand the amount of times I said I just don't have time to do something." she looks up at Raine. "But do i really need to say why i think you need help? Its a bit tactless but I will do so. The confusion and sudden emotional outbursts during missions. You seem lost and confused half the time Raine."
 

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Raine's beliefs on whether or not she was a Jedi were centered around the path she followed and the philosophy she embraced - not timelines or eras. That she did not train in the Jedi Temple on Coruscant didn't mean a thing. After all, not all Jedi trained there. Throughout history, a lot of Jedi training took them away from Temples and Praxeums and put them in the field - right smack in the center of insanity. You learned the Jedi way by living and doing - not merely by attending strings of lengthy and patronizing lectures or sparring with fellow acolytes using staves or training sabers.

Raine Andyr preferred 'spontaneous field study', as she liked to call it - to anything that took place in four walls and controlled conditions.

"I never said I thought of my life in terms that it was not my own," she said thoughtfully. "I do think that is far more than it appears. And if some of its parts are entirely out of my control or veiled in some thick shroud of mystery - so be it - I will eventually get to the bottom of it. I'm not in a hurry, though. And what lie exactly am I embracing or did I just misunderstand what you were suggesting?" There was no cloak or extra robe in sight, so she merely winked at Junie. "Use thermalkinesis to get warm; it's good practice. I'm not getting naked just so you can get an extra layer on you."

Remembering the punch line of Junie's final statement, the young Jedi could only smile. "I'm in the one place in the Galaxy I haven't memorized the map for - and you are wondering why I appear lost and confused half the time we go someplace? Wow, you're quite observant," she poked the Jawa playfully in where she thought her friend's ribs would be. "I don't like to be caught with my pants half way down on the way to my own funeral and that's exactly what happens to us - and you know it. Our pants, so to speak, are almost always down when we are trying to do any good out here. I am not the only one blindly feeling my way through every mission. But at long as I'm left standing at the end of it, I consider it a success. I don't expect perfection out of every attempt I make toward something, but I do expect to survive and help keep everyone else alive, also. The rest is icing on the cake."

Raising herself slightly upward as she rested on her forearm and elbows, Raine looked to the sky once more. "If your'e cold, we could just go back inside. Last thing we need now, is a Jawa fighting with a nasty head cold," she grinned.
 

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"No, nothing so direct, more like general advice." she responded to her question swiftly, before just giggling heavily. "I don't want you naked! No more than you want me naked, jeez, you angle for a hug and you get accused of wanting a strip."

she crosses her arms, just listening to Raine speak before giggling gently at the poke to her ribs. Deciding not to push the matter farther, Junie had done her part and if Raine was simply going to avoid it, she wasn't going to pursue it any harder. instead, since Raine seemed to want to play, she would play. "Well, there is a easy way to solve the whole pants down thing. Wear full length robes, works for me, i hardly ever wear pants and not a soul is the wiser." It wouldn't be hard for Raine to tell she was joking, considering she is wearing pants now and thanks to the fact she is lying down are clearly visible. "What can i say, I like a nice breeze every now and again."

Only to be made a complete liar of when another ice cold wind blows in from off the lake, causing Junie to snuggle close to Raine and shiver. ~stupid weather being stupid...~

She stops and sits up as Raine does, considering for a moment and shrugging. "I suppose that is true, even if i rather like the view..." She says staring up at the stars for a few seconds more. "But i will only leave if you promise to have a milkshake with me in the mess. I have a craving for something sweet in my life."
 

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Blinking, Raine pretended to pull away from the Jawa but then suddenly rolled forward and pulled Junie in for a close had. "Ask and you shall receive. Although... are you saying that humans look ugly naked? Mind you, you are probably right, they do. I find nudity uncomfortable unless it's just me alone with myself in the shower," Raine nodded sagely, releasing her friend from an ambushing embrace. "I was told there is such a thing as 'artful nudity' but I can't personally stomach much of it unless the lights are turned off and there is background noise to take the edge off," the Jedi admitted, laughing. Good thing it was dark, otherwise her face would probably be flushing deep crimson; unflattering, to be sure.

"Also - I could never turn down the milkshake, especially if it gets to have gummies in it..."

Gathering herself up from the sand, Raine took a moment to clean her clothing by shaking out whatever sand she could feel beneath her fingertips. "Something, not someone, eh?" She teased her friend, moving off slowly in the direction of the ship. "Just as well. Men make great fighting companions but personal stuff... let's just say I'm not eager to ever have another failed attempt at a relationship like I did when a certain effulgent personality was around." Pausing, she sighed - angry with herself for ever letting her thoughts drift back toward Radiant Tide. Perhaps Force hypnosis techniques could help her rid of some pesky memories - just like Mother used to do for her before.

"Well, come on then - you got me all hungry now in anticipation of my favorite dessert!"
 

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she meeps in surprise as the woman grabs her in a hug. she would have thought such a sudden hug to be a bit too hard for comfort. but surprisingly enough to her, it wasn't. though a bit vigorous at first, it quickly turned into a tender and warm affair that Junie could just snuggle into for the rest of the night. if she hadn't already, Raine would by now notice that Junie is not as poofy with layers as she normally is. Junie was hugging the other woman back as she giggled and shook her head at Raine's question.

"No, I don't find humans ugly naked. Its more I get a bit self conscious the less clothing people wear...I don't know if you noticed or not, but I tend to wear quite a bit of clothes. I just start getting curious how they aren't shivering all the time with less. But then I remember humans are humans." she tilted her head curiously up at Raine. "Artful nudity? Oh you mean like the kind you see on statues? doesn't it make it hard to see if they are in the dark?" she seems genuinely confused. Though she had seen pictures of ancient statues of nude figures. That certainly is what Raine is talking about, right?

Junie just bahs as Raine teases her. "I found that thinking about Rade too hard is a good way to lose your mind regardless. he was...always difficult, to say the very least. But no, me finding someone outside my own species just isn't going to happen. Besides, i would be suspicious of any man that was. After all, it would have to be a robe fetish, a gas mask fetish or a children fetish...none of which i want anything to do with supporting. especially the last. Thats ignoring the physical logistics." she said walking along with her friend. "So I will settle with something sweet. Milkshakes I don't have to worry about any of the above."

she nodded and picked up the pace into a healthy skip. just so Raine could move at her usual stride.
 

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"Well, that's good to know." Filing the information Junie provided into her memory banks, she marveled at the fact that the Jawa did not smell at all badly - at least not as badly as stories about them suggested. In fact... it was a rather pleasant odor, faintly reminding her of ...flowers? The young woman couldn't readily put her finger on it, but liked it just the same. And she was not about to ask whether the Jawa was actually applying some type of lotion to herself to mask the natural smell of her skin, either.

Nope, not going there!

"Human body temperature might have something to do with not having to wear cake-full of layers," Raine said. "Oh, and the fact that we are not cold-blooded creatures definitely helps." And confronting Junie's question about 'artful nudity', she merely smiled. "Yeah, the kind of nudity that is considered art, whether in painting, drawing or sculpture," she nodded, wondering if there were ever any nude sculptures of Jawas made by anyone. Doubtful. In fact, the species' actual appearance was a mystery to 99% of the Known Galaxy. Only other Jawas knew what Jawas looked like. And probably in the privacy of their tents, huts, rusty crawlers and what have you...

Returning to thoughts of Rade, the young woman lowered her gaze. All this time had passed and she still hadn't moved on, it seemed - even though she always tried to give off the impression that he never existed as part of her life. Appearances were often deceiving. Perhaps the teenage love/crush she felt for the man was abating, but she still thought of him and what could have been. More and more so, Raine went to bed with thoughts of living a happy life with someone. Settling down. Adopting a kid or five. Normal kind of stuff, really. "You're right," she finally said, forcing her chin upwards as they headed into the ship. What use was there to hold onto something that would never be? It was high time Raine focused herself on the now, and the people that were still here: for her, with her, and around her. "Does that mean you and I are going to be the two lonely outcasts until the end of our days?" Raine hoped not. Only time would tell, but at least she would not have to face the unknown alone.

"Oh, and a sweet muja berry milkshake sounds heavenly right about now."

The turbolift lights shone faintly in the hallway, drawing her gaze to the door ahead. Only a few minutes more and they would be enjoying the wholesome comfort of Jilly's scrumptious desserts. And what better way than to do so, than with a friend? Raine squeezed Junie's hand lightly, a faint smile appearing on her lips.

"With a gummy topping, of course."
 
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The little jawa just held the other womans hand for a while as they descended in the turbo lift. Considering Raine's question while enjoying her company. It was both joke that could likely be readily ignored, but it also had allot of pain behind it. Junie didn't realize how much Raine wanted that relationship to actually work. She couldn't help but wonder if it was a common connection between Raine and Raine's previous model that Raine seems desperate to not talk about as much as possible. Junie decided careful thought was required to attempt to answer it. Not to trick Raine in any way, but instead, tell the truth as much as she could as she saw it.

"Well, barring unforeseen circumstances that take us both out, I don't know." she shrugs helplessly up at Raine. "I suppose i have been too hard on the idea of romance. I suppose the question exposed how cynical i can be. I suppose it is possible that I could be liked for who i am and i suppose its possible that i wont be clueless and actually see it for what it is. I suppose I am more willing to see nefarious design on things of low odds happening than just a lucky or fated moment. But at the same time it isn't as if i have been trying to connect with people on any personal level. I keep myself busy just to stay useful. Perhaps its a ill fated logic that to remain tolerated I have to remain the most useful." she hmms as she considers. "If true, it would confirm any problem you have is a problem first with yourself."

"But you,"
she says as she looks up at Raine. "Are not me. You are beautiful, vibrant, talented, and far more clever than you give yourself credit for. You have good instincts, you don't need complicated logic like i do to make sense of what is right, you just know. I need to think of the odds as a challenge because it would be easy for me to decide that the die is cast, and any suffering that might cause i cannot effect. Which isn't true philosophically. But for you to decide that you will only ever be alone is to ignore the physical truth around you. For you to give up so young is just to squander all of your gifts over one heartbreak. It would be criminal, instead of just a tragedy."

she stops as she realizes they are at Jilly's. taking a look around and confused for a second how they got there. was she really talking for that long? jeez, she never figured herself to be long winded but apparently she is. "I'm sorry, ill end it short. We are both too young be be giving up yet." she looks up at jilly and waves. "One Pena fruit milkshake please. Raine would like a muja berry with gummies on top." she doesnt let go of raines, hand, instead simply looking up at Raine, waiting for her to decide what to do next.
 

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"You, too hard on the idea of romance?" Raine's other hand flew up to her mouth in mock surprise as the latter fell open. "Noooo... I don't believe it." What followed, was nothing short of a diabolical chuckle, if such a thing was possible given who was uttering it. "Believe it or not, there are people out there who will - and do - like you, for who you are. People who actually do not want to change you. People who see themselves honored to be your friends. And you'll always have the occasional jackass, like me, of course. Although now that you admit just how adorable I am, I may have to start being less of a jackass.... though it will be -SO- hard..."

Making some moaning and groaning sounds to illustrate the apparent hardship of the task, Raine tried hard not to blush. She never took compliments seriously or at all, in the way they were meant. She knew Junie meant them kindly, but the idea of comparing the two of them was absurd. Jawa and Human. Apple and Orange. Et cetera.

They walked into Jilly's hand in hand, although the place was mostly empty given the lateness of the hour. Looking down at her friend, Raine grinned. "Oh, I'm not giving up. I'm just becoming more and more picky. I didn't use to be - which is why I fell for Tide in the first place - should have seen through that one long before he left. Turns out, he wasn't 'the gold that glitters' but merely a piece of polished brass."

Saying this made the young Jedi feel oddly....better. And as Junie placed their orders, she waited until they were ready before taking up the tray and gesturing to her friend with a subtle nod of her head. "Let's find a comfy corner to delight ourselves in, shall we?" Leading the way, Raine plopped down the tray in a table situated in the farthest corner from the kitchen counter - but one that was also closest to the exit - so they could leave without having to traverse the usual gauntlet of tables and chairs.

"Bon appetit" she grinned, sliding the milkshake over to Junie before taking hold of her own dessert.
 
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Junie couldny help but giggle along with her friend, even if she was clearly making a joke out of her. Raine often had that effect, something like insulting her but instead just making the jawa laugh. anyone else, she was quite sure, would fail miserable in a similar attempt. It was a uniqueness she couldn't help but enjoy. Or, possibly, it was she was simply more forgiving of Raine because she knew that raine would never intentionally hurt her.

She was, on the other hand, quite happy in that moment to be shrouded as Raine tried in her own way to talk the jawa up. if only because she couldn't be seen blushing. if Raine was unused to compliments, or just didn't accept them very well, for Junie they are often a stranger. Other than 'good job,' which she took particular pride in. As usual, this internal conflict of both humility making her quite sure that Raine had to be mistaken and the undeniable happiness that the compliments gave her was invisible in every way but in the force. where the waves of contradictory feelings beamed off her.

"You better stop that, you will give me a big head." she diverts her gaze from her friend, diverting her gaze as she both thought, and was suddenly a bit embarrassed to look her direction. but after a moment continued to speak. "I don't know if your right about all that, but if you are...you mentioned friend. Well, I think we both know the way you appreciate friends is quite a bit different than you appreciate someone romantically." she sighed, a deep sigh as if she had wrestled with these thoughts quite allot with no clear winner, and the rematches were starting to exhaust her. the sigh rocking her little body. "Either way you meant it, I have yet to see anyone show that kind of interest, and if they exist, I hope they hurry it up and make it known, I am always more than happy to be proven wrong."

She couldn't help but giggle again, Junie always seeming quite good at shrugging off the worst of emotions with no small amount of swiftness, as Raine moaned and groaned about having to be 'nice'. "Oh stop it you." She nudged her friend with her body a they walked down the hall. "You can try to pretend you are anything but a sweet heart to anyone else but me. Because you and I both know better. The only part that will be hard about not being a jerk for you is knowing I know that dirty little secret."

Junie just allowed Raine to have a moment to talk about how bad her relationship with Rade was for a long moment without interrupting. Not only was she not sure how to even comfort her in this strange situation, but Rade and Junie did not necessarily leave things on bad terms, and she still considered him a friend, in spite of everything. So hearing Raine go after him as she did was a bit awkward for her. So much so that Raine could probably feel this dissonance in the force, wanting to be there for her, but also wanting her to feel comforted by her friend during this moment of revelation, so, a soft squeeze of her hand after she was done speaking was the most Raine got, with attentive eyes making sure she didn't need more.

Only once her milkshake shown itself at the edge of the counter did Junie release the other woman's hand. mostly because it was a bit heavy and large for her to deal with one handed. As they walked to their seat never had Junie looked more childlike, holding an oversized glass of ice cream in two hands, having to hold it over her head to see where she was going. Having to slide the icy treat onto the table before sitting down, and even then having to climb up into the chair and stand on it to be able to reach the straw poking out of the ice cream mess.

Though manage she did, and says happily "Cheers!" before tucking into the dessert. Pen fruit was a bit rare this far from the center of the galaxy proper, but even the extract this milkshake was made of still had the delectable basic of the taste of coconut and pineapple mixed together that Junie adored. Doing a little dance while humming in happiness as she took a nice big drink. then offering her milkshake to Raine. "Want some?"
 
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